Warning! Probable Sensitive Topic: What was your reason for attempting Suicide?

bullying

 

Re: Warning! Probable Sensitive Topic: What was your reason for attempting Suici

doing wrong even though i know it is.. I do it sometimes because I get a small pleasure in doing so but then i get depressed over it afterwards

 

i am not more than 18 years old but sometimes, i sick of people's greed, injustice and hypocrites also i went through pain. I used to be a naughty boythen my brother was so called older than me, start to beat me up with belts just to discipline me, i hated him alot his injustice made me sick, he can while i cannot for instance my mom bought a new computer, then he says u guys cannot touch it then the next day you'll see. I live in boarding school and i am in pain since the system(umm please don't get offended)that actually is oversided to native races also being minority wow i am writing an essay lol

 

Almost every human being has in one way or another, in one point of their lives, thought of suicide (Mostly teenage years). Yeah, even me. Even if you do say you're not afraid to die, deep down inside, there's always a shadow of fear and regret.

 

The species it self is naturally afraid of death and avoids it but some jump off buildings and only feel the fear when they realize there's no turning back

 

I've thought about suicide many times. But i usually pull myself together by thinking that the next day will be better.

Edit - Now that i think about it, its a miricle that i've never had two bad days in a row.

 

My reason for suicide? I felt like I was Second-class

I was a failure, but I blamed everyone else ("You hate me? Well F*** you too!). I wanted to pick a fight with anyone just to watch them get pummeled by my fists. I remember wanting to commit suicide and drag someone else with me while doing so. I wanted to toss a nemesis off the 10th story roof and then going after him make his life a living hell. I also wanted to join the Marines and then live on the battlefield,( but thats another story) Then I joined the Marine's JROTC in High School they taught me to be a better person by encouraging me to compete in "King Kong Qtip Fighting".


I still have said Inferiority Complex and the urge to end it all, but I woo women now and shove the fact that women love me into other people's faces (see caption under Profile pic).