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I have a confession.

Discussion in 'Forum Games, Jokes & Random' started by Conrannex, Dec 4, 2010.

  1. Natewlie

    Natewlie A bag of tricks

    As much as I love the idea of putting your mind into another situation or context and through the juxtaposition it makes your current situation better. Well, it doesn't work that way.

    And lol at the word emo coming about again because it's definitely overused and has such a vague definition.

    Everyone's coping mechanisms are different, when I cope with a hard situation, I like to be alone and shut down, if people try to communicate me (and not the other way around) I freak out. Granted sometimes this makes things worse due to my no contact stance, but it's how I work things through. There's also some thing I'm able to move on from, and there's something I can't help but hold on to.

    Also age and maturity also determine on how well a person can cope with a situations. Teens in my experiences are much more likely to turn their situation into the end of the world for them, hence the classic line 'I just wanna kill myself'.
     
  2. LuckyTrouble77

    LuckyTrouble77 Well-Known Member

    I suck at this over dramatizing thing. I honestly can't tell you what my coping mechanism is. I would say it's being alone and thinking deeply about many different things that are currently occupying my mind, but that can be common practice before falling asleep at night. I try to give a hint that "Hey, I wanna be left alone at the moment," but I'm so used to people not getting the hint, it doesn't bother me that much anymore either.

    Basically, I have had shit shoveled at me, I'm not sure how much is repressed (most of my childhood is a blank with only select memories intact), but it is all there. I will never say I have had it as bad as Toffee up there, I'm sure not many on RomU can say they have without totally blowing their situation out of proportion. All I know is that I'm far more normal and mentally intact than I should have ever been, and I feel very lucky to be able to have built as stable of relationships as I can.

    I'm an anxious individual at times, this will inevitably cause problems down the line due to how hard it is to control, and I've had many issues getting close to people for reasons I can mostly only speculate on, but I've gotten myself to self recovery. This year has been freaking spectacular so far, and I've met some insanely awesome people. I'm feeling more free to be open with people (I discussed my porn habits in Genetics the other day with a rather large group of people), more free to try and get close with people I want to be close with, and am overall just allowing myself to have more fun.

    Taking life too seriously is overrated.
     
  3. ShinChanfan

    ShinChanfan Well-Known Member

    I confess I've never played a Zelda game
     
  4. Natewlie

    Natewlie A bag of tricks

    Indeed, if God has a sense of humor (see the platypus) why can't we?
     
  5. dedboy

    dedboy Guest

    The only bad thing is, it took you this long to come to a defined conclusion.
    It could have been a lot longer though.
    Drake, you sound like the type that punishes yourself for even being alive. You have the ability and the God given talent to quite possible help others and keep yourself afloat, yet you're far too blinded by history and held back by your own shadows to come to the realization that you're needed.
    You have opened up already, and while it's a damn good start, and you have my respect for it, any rogue situation could send you spiraling back to what you were.
    A person cannot have genuine self worth, unless they've felt worthless.
    A man can fight one thousand battles on any given battlefield, yet on the battlefield of the mind, one problem is amplified to be an unwinnable battle. Do you not think your life is more than a series of interchangeable circumstances? From one person who has battled, just to show himself that he has no reason to fear change, I believe what holds you back, is also what will save your existence.
    And your porn problem you say you have is very likely not even worthy of being called an issue.
     
  6. gamblore101

    gamblore101 Well-Known Member

    I have a confession... I imprinted my penis into the rainbow. if you look towards the top right area you will see my wang on the rainbow.
     
  7. dedboy

    dedboy Guest

    here's a hint. Never say rainbow and penis in the same sentence

    rainbow= sign for queers
    penis= snack for queers

    The preceding has been brought to you for purifying the earth 2011.
    We now return you to your regularly scheduled heterosexual forum.
     
  8. LuckyTrouble77

    LuckyTrouble77 Well-Known Member

    I never labeled my porn habits as an issue. :p

    Also, I lived my life in a shell of self-worthlessness for a long time and don't plan on going back. I refuse to let myself regress, I am not that type of person. I will not delve into my life completely, as it's a story nobody wants to read, and that I don't want to type. Not all of the select memories from my childhood are good, and some are bad enough that like I said, I should not be normal. I should be like my brother with depression, or my sister who is bi-polar (not sure how related the latter is, that may be genetic), but instead I find myself perfectly able to keep going with only minor anxiety to show for it. I mean, I didn't come off totally unscathed, but I'm pretty much 99% not insane.

    I can get red as a tomato too if I get uncomfortable. Used to happen all the time, but now I find it happening less and less even in new situations. It still happens, don't get me wrong, but that alone I feel shows improvement. It does make people laugh though, so I don't mind it that much.

    I find my old self impossible to retrieve really. I hope to discard almost all of it as time goes by. Not much is worth keeping, and the only parts worth keeping would have been present regardless.
     
  9. darkrequiem

    darkrequiem Well-Known Member

    Rainbows are optical phenomenon, not a symbol owned by anyone, Dedboy.

    Oh, boo. XP

    Confession: I'm out of my head today.
     
  10. gamblore101

    gamblore101 Well-Known Member

    I have another confession. Remember those tingly feelings you get while your in bed trying to get to sleep?
    Thats me violating you with my mind.
     
  11. LuckyTrouble77

    LuckyTrouble77 Well-Known Member

    That popped into my head when I read that.
     
  12. Nitemare_ Plague

    Nitemare_ Plague Well-Known Member

    confession: i wish i could be a gay guy
     
  13. mds64

    mds64 Well-Known Member

    Toffee, wow that is a real one.

    Let's get detailed...

    As a child I was a selfish spoiled brat, only because when mum and dad fought (which was often-they should be divorced by rights) mum would rather me blind with happiness and buy me the toys I always asked for.

    To this day I am selfish, I never buy friends of family gifts for any occasion but I bought myself $500+ of games in the last 2 months alone (gt5 signiture edition brought up the number ::) )

    I guess I rather the blind happiness of games to the harsh reality, with my ps3 always on since purchase, stereo pumping, laptop filling with downloads...Im content in my room...


    The other confession is as I grown older I learnt I hate seeing other's suffer, so If I see something bad happening to someone, online or irl, you may see a side of me hardly anyone else sees...

    Finally, I call myself emo, not just because of my bleak outlook on life but I can cut into myself...not my wrist, tried that, and failed...let's say the 'shrooms on my feet are that far deep even doctors cant get to them and are afraid to try anything more intense than freezing >_>

    (I also like stating facts about myself, not because I want sympathy and attention but because it's one of many releases other than gaming...)

    Well what's...oh right.

    I remember something you told me...I dont think you'll be as bad as you keep telling us.
     
  14. dedboy

    dedboy Guest

    Building the perfect beast. Then let your actions be the epitaph for the pain of what once was.
    It's good to see you as not a part of the psychiatric system. We have plenty of them as is. I don't believe in regression therapy. However, I hope you have genuinely coped with your past, and not just tried to reinforce the notion that you're fine. You know the adage of those who didn't learn from history..yadda, yadda.

    Humans are not built with a intergrated preface, rather we pull in pieces of each situation to form what we need to, acceptable or not. Thus we're not shaped from anything other than how we react from each situation we're in. Mewtwo said it best. "The Circumstances of ones birth are irrelevant, it is what we do with that live(s) that matter."
    Yes I quoted a pokemon.
    It was a damn good line, and holds true now.
    Forgive, but do not forget. At 1:33 AM EST, the lunar eclipse starts, you should check it out.

    Allow yourself the chance to suffer Drake, for after the suffering ends, you can allow yourself the healing you need. Remember this, you're not fighting alone my friend. Your battle is similar to mine.
    My confession is that no matter what I do, I cannot ever feel anything but failure.
    For as long as I remember, no matter my accomplishments, it's just one failure to another.
    I graduated the academy, and all I wanted to do was find a reason to disappear.
    Battling cancer, I met an eight year old who told me to stop being a bitch, and not feel sorry for myself.
    i wanted to talk to him again, to ask him why did he help me.
    His mother told me he died three weeks ago, in his sleep.
    I guess it's back to lone wolf status. Like I said, I'll never understand.
     
  15. Nitemare_ Plague

    Nitemare_ Plague Well-Known Member

    que?
     
  16. mds64

    mds64 Well-Known Member

    Well why would you want to be a gay guy then?
     
  17. Nitemare_ Plague

    Nitemare_ Plague Well-Known Member

    when i asked, i mean to elaborate on "I remember something you told me...I dont think you'll be as bad as you keep telling us."
     
  18. mds64

    mds64 Well-Known Member

    Didnt you complain once about your appearance?
     
  19. Nitemare_ Plague

    Nitemare_ Plague Well-Known Member

    oh yeah.
    I adore gay guys despite what they go through. most i've met are pretty cute and okay with the way they look but i'm pretty sure i'm stereo typing
     
  20. mds64

    mds64 Well-Known Member

    I seen alot like that was well, my theory is they have enough female genes to make them think like that but not enough to make them rather switch genders.

    There are straight guys like that, they just...get bullied into submission.


    Im guilty of this despite me being a bully victium, infact the dude was straight, but not only did he turn gay...but he dressed like some punk/emo thing...not just me but the fact we worked together for 2 years before he got fired wouldnt of helped...

    He got fired for theft, I quit because I became insane.